Hi everyone - Happy New Year to all - you know last night i dreamed about you all, and when i got up i saw that i must have been dreaming when you were posting!
Chamutal - i'm so sorry. Losing twins is rare, and attending a birth where the baby dies must be too, i cannot comprehend how you got through facing both in such a short time . I'm so so glad you were able to have a break and some chocolate and that you're able to ttc again afterall - i felt so sad for you when you last posted, not ready to be complete with your family and feeling like you had no choice anyway. Your daughters words were so sweet, she was the one who knew it was twins, wasn't she? She sounds like an old soul. I hope you get your sweet strawberries and a sweet sticky babe this year.
Robsgirl - i dreamed you'd posted in labour last night, so perhaps you won't have too long to wait. I can't remember being 37 weeks physically, but i can intellectually recall the desire for it to be over with and the babe in my arms, so i sympathise! Thank goodness i'd forgotten that bit or maybe i'd not have wanted any more! You sound very organised for your little lady coming! I'm impressed. I think i was still organising things at 41 weeks with DD!
Journeying, i'm glad your DH is improving and you're looking to ttc later in the year. Your education path sounds very exciting, it's a part of me i've been neglecting since i had DD. I wonder if a baby will decide to pop up just as you have everything else laid out? It's the sort of thing i expect kids to do (i.e. wait until you've been accepted to begin and then suddenly now is when they'll come down to gestate and be born). I hope this year brings as many of your plans to fruition as possible
As for me...
Well i'm 19 weeks now. Nothing much is different to when i last posted. Christmas was nice, being fussed over by DH's family. After Christmas DD and then the rest of us got a stinking cold which is only now beginning to subside. DD had a temperature for 5 days and was up several times a night, every night, during that time. Luckily DH was off work but she only wanted me in the night and i was utterly exhausted by the time Hogmanay arrived. I ended up in bed by 10pm, and by 1am DD was in beside me, kicking, grinding her teeth and whinging in her sleep.... Still, we all woke up together on Jan 1st, which was nice.
The weather has been bad here, with snow since before Christmas still lying now and being regularly added to - i know that's normal for some of you but we're just not set up for it - a lot of councils are running out of grit and salt for the roads, most people don't have 4X4 vehicles and no-one has snow chains - this is getting to be a problem when many side roads now have 4 inches of ice from packed snow on them, particularly in our stupid rear-wheel-drive car which simply won't go up slopes in these conditions unless it's already moving at a good speed. Our midwife was unable to get to us for our 17-week appointment and managed to come at 18 weeks instead. I am glad not to be her - she had a woman due on the 23rd, the baby came on the 1st i believe, goodness knows how it was driving out to her!
Our little babe wriggles now, but i still don't feel all that much compared to with DD. I get the feeling my uterus is slacker due to having been used already, and also perhaps that this baby doesn't kick about as much - every time we try to get a doppler HB ( with the mw, i don't have a doppler myself or anything) it is wriggling about like crazy and it takes ages for us to get one, but i just don't really feel all that much. If i lie on my tummy i can now feel definite wriggling and kicking, but by this time with DD other people could feel her from the outside, (and i was fatter in those days) so it's a different experience for me. I'm hoping DH will get to feel something soon.
Having a cold has enlightened me to the horrible fact that if i sneeze 2 or 3 times back to back i am slightly incontinent (or right on the edge anyway). I don't understand this - i have a good pelvic floor, i can "stop" DH during sex with muscular control, so i don't know why i can't control pee! It's only since i got past about 14 weeks. It's only sneezing so far, i'm fine with coughing, jumping, running etc. But i am imagining that by 30 weeks i will have no control!
I'm going to bundle DD and i up now and get out for a wee walk in the snow - at least she enjoys this weather :)