Good to be updated with how everyone is doing.
I thought I'd put in a little update of my own.
This pregnancy has been different to my other pregnancies.
I am now 14 weeks plus 2 days today.
I've been really sick this time round, and very very tired.
this week I've started to feel more normal. There's so much work during this season, at the veg garden, and of course having to catch up on all the washing and housework that I've seriously neglected in the last few weeks. My husband is very sweet about it!! LOL
I was complaining yesterday that I can't seem to catch up, and he said "I think you are doing amazingly" which I thought was very kind of him LOL
We decided to have a scan with this pregnancy, as my fundus is VERY high for my dates, which I am one hundred per cent sure about. My freind who is a midwife papated my tummy two weeks ago and the fundus was at 17 week mark. She said she can feel the fundus but not a feotus which is why she thinks I am right about my dates and it could be twins.
So the next day I went to my GP and asked for a scan. as anyone who lives in England will tell you, no one moves themselves too fast here... so it will be 2 and a half weeks before I have this "urgent" scan.
The midwife came to book me in for a homebirth yesterday. I asked her to feel my tummy as it now feels just by my belly button. She said they don't do it at booking in.
I begged her to try and listen in with her sonicaid - at least hearing even one heartbeat would calm me in terms of possible pathology - but she wouldn't. They don't do it at booking!!!!!!!! AHHH the beauty of RED TAPE !!!
She said "Oh well, if it's twins, you will have to go into hospital" and I said "actually I will still want to have my babies at home".
Hmmm... Feeling a little stressed. What could this high fundus mean?? What if it's not twins but something wrong... And quite honestly, the thing that plays on my mind more than anything, and stresses me more than anything, is what if it's just one baby and nothing wrong and seemingly "No reason" for this... like, my intuition is out?!
I feel a little bit like I am pulled into a whirlpool, and I understand how some people (I see it with clients sometimes) get really hooked on tests in pregnancy. I feel like the more eagerly I wait for the scan results, the less connected I am with my baby and my body, and I wish I wasn't so sensitive.